Ok, so yeah, my post Unlock the Door was a bit dramatic…ok more than a bit.
The thing I love about God is that He is extremely creative. He can use the most rubbish experience and turn it into something beautiful. Since Soul Survivor I haven’t really made anything. I’ve done the odd scribble in my journal, but overall I’ve sort of been squashing my creative impulses. This doesn’t sound like a good thing but I think it is part of a process. I have sort have been limiting my creativity to cute & crafty. I put myself into an Elsie Flannigan box. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE Elsie Flannigan, but it’s not all I am.
It’s like, I took a piece of clay and moulded it into what I wanted it to look like. The whole Soul Survivor experience was like God squashing it flat and now, he’s slowly remoulding it into what it should be. I’m experimenting with my creativity and attempting things I haven’t tried before. God has given me passion for music, beauty, movies, books and particularly morbid things for a reason. I’m trying to see how I can use all of those things for him. Making things makes me happy.
When I was at Soul Survivor, I went and saw the lovely Dusk speak about vocation and she used this quote.
“The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness & the world’s deep hunger meet” – Frederic Buechner
I’ve found my deep gladness, now I just have to find where it meets with the world’s deep hunger.